Why am I Catholic?
Why do I work for the Catholic Church?
Why do I send my children to Catholic school?
Why did I start this Catholic Excellence online platform?
I’ve been asking myself these questions over the past month. As The Summer of Scandal (as dubbed by the Catching Foxes podcast) has erupted, I have hit a low point. It’s unbelievable the timing of my career change and this truth coming to light. Raising money for the Catholic Church is not going well these days….and probably won’t be for a long time.
Did I jump on a sinking ship? Or did God intentionally place me in a difficult situation for a purpose? Ultimately, what does He want from me?
Being saturated with media coverage and opinions from Catholics and non-Catholics alike, it is downright depressing, sobering, and panicking to come to terms with the truth.
But what is the truth? I believe in the following:
- Archbishop McCarrick is just the first layer of the rotten onion.
- There are a lot more criminals like him out there who were never discovered and may still be in ministry.
- I am uncomfortable with Pope Francis’ response to the scandal.
- I hope that every state conducts a grand jury investigation.
- It’s going to be really ugly moving forward as a Church.
The more and more I have been trying to place blame or trying to find a solution…I can’t. I keep looking inward and getting disgusted with my own sin and the culture that surrounds us that is permissive of these crimes, silence, cover-ups etc. I do believe that culture is changing; however, if we don’t continue to feel bothered and betrayed, then things might fall back into normal patterns. And I don’t want that to happen! I don’t want an Archbishop McCarrick lurking in places of power. I want to trust my shepherds, but I also am not naive to the depths of sin.
Prayer has been my starting point. But it is not the end. I must take action, and so should you. I signed the Catholic Women’s Forum petition to Pope Francis found here. I am intentionally contacting other faithful Catholic men and women and seeking community in a time where we need it for the sake of our children and our own salvation. I am attending the Humanae Vitae conference hosted by the Archdiocese of Philadelphia on October 13th. Registration and Schedule can be found here.
When you ask how did we get here? I think the answer to that was predicted by Blessed Pope Paul VI when he wrote Humane Vitae 50 years ago.
Why am I Catholic? Because I believe in Catholic Excellence and I am choosing to surround myself with it, and in turn to BURN THE ROT.